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Life must go on

September 7th, 2009 | Posted by jeangr3y in Personal | Rants - (0 Comments)

I don’t know what I’ve done… The only thing that I am sure right now is that I am so good in messing up with everything. I focused all my time and attention to this “something” and after a few months, it turned out to be useless. It’s so frustrating that in the end, no matter what I do… I will never be able to get it back!

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I am a failure… I know that… but life must go on!

Even I will fail a hundred times, that doesn’t mean that I will just stop and be stuck here. Yes I am so disappointed right now but it also makes me think that I have to exert more effort so I will be able to achieve all my goals in the future.

Life must go on…

Tang Ina Nya by Akuztikz – I don’t know this song not until last night, my friends Mik and Ynna told me to listen to this song coz they thought somehow I could relate to its lyrics… Thanks guys though some lines of this song is really not for me. I’m not that bitter… I’m not sweet either… LOL Hmmm… Oh well… Hindi ko rin winiwish na may mangyaring masama sa taong nanakit sa damdamin ko… never… kasi mahal kita e… Lintek na pagmamahal yan… Someday I’ll be over you

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Akuztikz – Tang Ina Nya Lyrics

Hindi ko magets why merong ulam sa video? Can anyone tell me? LOL
I just like to dedicate this song to all the brokenhearted souls… Tang Ina Nya! by Akuztikz… Love it!

slow internet connection

March 20th, 2009 | Posted by dailytrends101 in Internet | Rants - (0 Comments)

Slow internet connection – Last week my problem was I couldn’t browse any websites even I’ve got internet connection. What did I do? I just formatted my hard drive and after that I could surf the internet again. And now I am so pissed off… My internet connection is so slow like a dial up. What’s happening to Smart Broadband? I’ve tried to check my internet speed today and I am only getting 65kbps to 90kbps… Sheesshhhh… I couldn’t even drop entrecard to my other blogs because it takes too long for websites to fully load up. :( Next month I can terminate my account with them coz finally I’m already through with their one year contract. The agony of waiting for websites to load up will soon be over. At last!

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March 18th, 2009 | Posted by dailytrends101 in Personal | Rants - (Enter your password to view comments.)

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Protected: Did you ever love me???? It doesn't matter coz it's over!!! SINUNGALING!!!!!

March 14th, 2009 | Posted by dailytrends101 in Personal | Rants - (Enter your password to view comments.)

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Until now I was shocked to what I found out. I trusted you so much… Trust really matters to me… and you broke that TRUST! You know this is not the first time that you lied to me… You’ve been a consistent liar for I don’t know how long and you keep on telling all those lies until now… How dare you? If you’re reading this you better start cleaning all those mess. I don’t even have to ask if you still have any conscience because it’s so proven that you don’t have it!

Just a warning to everyone…. “Do not consider it proof just because it is written in books, for a liar who will deceive with his tongue will not hesitate to do the same with his pen…”

I just can’t believe that everything was just a lie! If the fish had not opened its mouth, it would not have been caught. I don’t even have to set any traps so you would be caught…. And speaking of traps I have to go for a while to buy moth traps, fly traps, rat traps and liar traps.

Bahala na si God sayo…

C’mon… be brave enough to show your true colors now…

You’re the most sincere liar that I ever met in my whole life…

Ang galing mo gumawa ng story…. ganun lang pala yun… ngayon alam ko na…. tama na… tapusin mo na… wag mo na dagdagan pa ang patong patong na kasinungalingan na inimbento mo…. :(

Isa lang ang masasabi ko…. magaling ka talaga… magaling kang gumawa ng kasinungalingan…

kawawa naman ang ibang taong napasakay mo rin sa magagandang istorya mo…

Hinding hindi kita mapapatawad sa ginawa mo sakin… :(

C’mon… be brave enough to show your true colors now…

You’re the most sincere liar that I ever met in my whole life…

Ang galing mo gumawa ng story…. ganun lang pala yun… ngayon alam ko na…. tama na… tapusin mo na… wag mo na dagdagan pa ang patong patong na kasinungalingan na inimbento mo…. :(

Isa lang ang masasabi ko…. magaling ka talaga… magaling kang gumawa ng kasinungalingan…

kawawa naman ang ibang taong napasakay mo rin sa magagandang istorya mo…

Hinding hindi kita mapapatawad sa ginawa mo sakin… :(

What’s wrong with my PC? It’s been a month since I started to have problems in surfing the internet. I am connected on the internet but I could browse for a while then after a few minutes it will just stop browsing and I couldn’t open any websites. Chat messengers are working perfectly and I could also check my email using Thunderbird. Windows update, anti virus update are also working. I could even post entries in my blog using windows live writer. The only thing that’s not working is that I couldn’t browse. I’ve tried using different browsers but to no avail. I’ve tried to surf the internet using my PSP, Sony P1i and my father’s laptop and it can surf the internet with no problems at all so I am sure that only my laptop have this problem. I’ve already searched at Google if someone has the same problem as mine and if they already got any solution. I’ve tried what they suggested but it is still not working. :( I don’t know what to do anymore…. Maybe I should just reformat my pc…

Also, I found out just today that I have to replace my laptop battery. This is really a bad day for me. I don’t know yet how much laptop battery would cost. I just wish there’s a promo or a discount for laptop battery so I don’t have to spend that much. Promotional products cost cheaper and that’s what I prefer to buy right now since I have to save money coz I am planning to buy something next month. Whatever it is… I couldn’t tell right now… Ciao!

Missing you – I always feel incomplete like a part of me is missing when you’re not here. I know that right now, this is how things have to be…youtube missing you written love letters Tyler Hilton lyrics tyler hilton sad love letters real love letters read love letters missing you thoughts missing you lyrics missing you love letters missing you miss you love letters lyrics missing you love missing you letters love letters to read love letters love and relationship letters i missed you i love you letters  missing you pictureYou’re physically present but your mind is somewhere in the middle of nowhere… I already miss you like you’re already gone… You just don’t know how difficult it is to see you in that situation and I don’t know where I could get the strength that I need because in situations like this, you used to be here at my side and telling me that everything’s gonna be fine… I am missing you so bad… Only God knows how long do we have to wait… Don’t worry I will always be here… Every day without you just reminds me of the joy you add to my life……

I am praying for your fast recovery…. I love you so much baby….

youtube missing you written love letters Tyler Hilton lyrics tyler hilton sad love letters real love letters read love letters missing you thoughts missing you lyrics missing you love letters missing you miss you love letters lyrics missing you love missing you letters love letters to read love letters love and relationship letters i missed you i love you letters  missing you picture

I used to hate this song… not actually the song but because it reminded me of someone… but I love its lyrics coz that’s what exactly I’m feeling right now… I am missing you so bad… Here’s Missing You Lyrics by Tyler Hilton

The long wait is over! At last! After so many hours of waiting, finally I’ve got the chance to talk to a customer agent of SMART Bro. I told them that I can’t browse but I can use Digsby messenger and windows live writer. I was thinking that maybe the DSL antenna could be a problem. Maybe it needs re-aligning or maybe they need to replace it since I am not getting the expected internet speed that I paid for. I subscribed for 384kbps but I am only getting not even the half of its advertised internet speed. I know what “UPTO 384kbps” was supposed to mean but imagine most of the time I am only getting 60kbps to 96kbps! It sucks you know! Oops… don’t worry I didn’t say that word to the customer agent that I have talked to. :P

The agent said that they were having problems with their base station in my area but they were fixing it. So what should I do? He said to just monitor the internet connection and wait within 24 hours… blahhhh… blahhhhh blahhhhh…. whatever!

It was so frustrating coz I’ve heard that word again….. “WAIT”

Oh well….. As if I have any choice!

have you ever tried Sun cellular’s wireless broadband? – They said that I’ve got a very long patience where most of the time though some people tend to become abusive. Anyways…. Yes I am very patient because I always believe that everyone deserves a second chance. I can be very patient but not when it comes to poor service! I always got internet connection problem since I subscribed with Smart Bro. I couldn’t remember how many times did I call their hotline and still no one is answering….. Sheeeeshhhhh…. If only I can subscribe to other internet service provider but unfortunately, the only ISP in my place is this SMART Bro so I have no choice but I don’t know how long can I endure this poor internet connection service. A friend was suggesting to try SUN Cellular’s broadband wireless service.

Have anyone of you ever tried this SUN Cellular wireless broadband? Are you satisfied? I am living here in Valenzuela area near Novaliches. I need feedback please….

Internet connection problem – It was so weird why I couldn’t browse in any sites that I want to. I’ve got strong wifi signal here so what could be the problem? I’ve tried if I can connect to internet when using gtalk and yahoo messenger but it says that I have no internet connection but when I used Digsby messenger, I can connect to any of my gtalk and yahoo accounts without having any problems at all. So it seems like Digsby is the only thing that I can use for now…. :( I don’t know why I have to get through all of these… I’m so freakin’ tired you know… and I am not feeling well now so I want to finish all the tasks that I need to do for this day as soon as I can…

Maybe you’re wondering kung paano ko napost to? I am using windows live writer…. just wanna test if I can publish this and it worked LOL So weird talaga! But I can’t retrieve my previous entries using this… so it’s like one way lang… It’s better than nothing…. Wahhhh!!!! I hate you Smart Bro!!! Joke lang… :P

Computer  computer restart/shutdown takes longer than usual pictureMy computer was acting so strange since last week. It takes too long to respond whenever I have to restart or shutdown my pc. Too many programs were running so I thought that was causing the delay. I tried to restart it again without any open programs and still I have to wait for 5 to 10 minutes before it shuts down! Maybe there were programs running in the background so I checked it again, I turned it off hoping that it would resolve the problem and still I had to wait ’til it would completely shutdown. I have a lot of things to do and I don’t need a problem like this… not now!

I don’t think that there is a virus because AVG antivirus software automatically scan my pc at a scheduled time. Windows defender is also installed to check if there are malicious programs that are running. And I also have firewall installed for protection against hackers and worms.

Reformatting would be my last option since it’s time consuming and that means I have to reinstall all the softwares and vista updates again!

What could be the problem? I need help… Anyone?

sleep night awake  sleep all day and stay up all night pictureI usually sleep all day and stay up all night. I know what you’re thinking… I am not a vampire okay? and I’m not even a drug addict. I just prefer the night over the day. I am much comfortable to sleep when I know that everyone is awake. Most of the time my parents were complaining because they missed me already so sometimes I tried to stay awake as I can for the whole day until I doze off for them not to miss me too much. Like right now, I only got 2 hours of sleep and I have to be awake for the whole day because I’ve heard my mom was complaining again. I hate explaining things so yeah… here I am… typing these words… I just woke up and here I am in front of the PC and blogging again. Sometimes I wish I am not who I am… I know I am not making any sense here… Okay that’s enough for now… I’ll just take a shower then I’ll get back here as soon as I can…

I smell something fishy!

January 20th, 2009 | Posted by jeanjean in Music Videos | Personal | Poetry | Rants - (0 Comments)

Am I just being a paranoid or what? I know most of you have already experienced the feeling of being in a paranoid state. What is paranoid anyway? It is said that you are a paranoid when you are having feelings of intense distrust and suspecting that something wrong is going on without having proofs.

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Paranoid

And that is exactly what I feel right now. Sometimes I don’t know if I am just getting paranoid or what. I feel like there’s something really happening behind my back and whatever it is…. I really need to find out… I am having a lot of nightmares again this past few weeks and it’s as if it really happened… I could still remember the last time I had a nightmare about something…. Last year I found out that it really happened! Maybe it’s really true that dreams are giving us signs…. Or maybe I was just jumping into conclusions… I don’t have any evidence so for now I will just leave it that way til I got proofs… Too bad I can’t elaborate the story here because it was too personal. That’s all I can say for now…

Maybe I should write this one in my private blog instead… And speaking of my private blog, too bad I messed up with it yesterday… WordPress.com deleted my account due to TOS violation… Why? I uploaded my backup entries in my other blog and I forgot there were some links that should not be posted there and maybe that was the reason… maybe wordpress detected those links that’s why my account was deleted… Anyways… I just got lucky that I’ve already exported all my entries in that blog before I messed it up. I was lucky I regularly do this backup thing so I don’t have to worry in case of emergency like this… My blogging life will be doomed if I don’t have any backups at all… Backup entries are just like emergency lights… it really saved my day… So the only thing that I need to do now is to open new account and upload all my entries there… and that means I have to make a new blog! I really hate creating new account because it means that I have to fill up a lot of infos and need to check the email for verification purposes… so time consuming! Sigh…

when you and I collide…

January 17th, 2009 | Posted by dailytrends101 in Personal | Rants - (6 Comments)

Why is it so hard for other people to understand what I’m trying to say? I am so tired of being misunderstood… It’s as if I am always against them where in fact I am always on their side… It’s as if I am implying something that’s against what they’re thinking (which is not really true… ) and most of the time they got so pissed even if I didn’t mean anything! Sigh… I am on your side for God’s sake!! Why am I always treated like I am always on the negative side???? : ( Nakakailan ka na ha…. hindi ko na matolerate… : ( Masakit ka rin magsalita…. **sobs I guess my opinion is not really important anyway… maybe its my fault… It would be much better if I will just listen and that’s it… Do I really have to explain myself just so you would understand…. and I’m not even insinuating… sigh… My arms are wide open but if you think that I am not making any sense here then go on… leave me alone if that’s what you want… Do you think it would make any difference at all? All my life I am alone! And I guess………. it would be like that forever…  Yeah right… maybe you need someone else… you don’t need me… so just go…

**tearsdroppin’

Siguro matanda lang ako… or bata ka pa nga…

This 2mb upload limit of wordpress caused me a lot of delays. Do you have problems in importing your wordpress xml file too?? I don’t know why do I always get the most complicated things in life. sigh.. I have a lot of tasks that have to be done for this week and this 2mb upload limit of wordpress when importing entries makes it more complicated and caused me a lot of delays. Anyway, enough with the ranting… I’ve tried to follow other bloggers’ suggestion of editing this php.ini file, .htaccess and wp.config and increase the 2mb upload limit to 8mb. I’ve tried that one too but it didn’t work for me so I’ve read the instruction again thinking I’ve only missed something. I also increased the maximum upload time and still it didn’t work. They said I have to contact my webhost. I did! I already sent a support ticket about my concern but 24 hours already passed and still I got no reply. Geezz… So I have no choice but to fix it in my own way! Arghhh

I am thinking of something that could bring myself back from being a “blog addict.” I think it’s much better to be like that again. I am feelin’ so much pressure to almost everything that I do to the point that I couldn’t focus and left me feelin’ so disappointed. A lot of you will say that its all in the mind… yeah it is… well I guess that’s the problem… I’m not using my mind now and instead letting my emotions handle everything that I have.

Sometimes I feel so tired and almost got fed up… my heart just wanted to explode for it handles a lot of emotions and I’m having a hard time to express what I really wanna say or do. Yes, I am a loser… but only for now… I am not losing hope and soon I’m gonna rise again and pick up the pieces of what was left so I can start a new life of my own.

weak signal

October 3rd, 2008 | Posted by jeanjean in Personal | Rants - (0 Comments)

Who’s using Sun Cellular sim? I used to be a Sun subscriber for more than 3 years because their call and text rates are way much cheaper than any other network providers here in the Philippines. The only problem was that the signal here in my area was very weak and I know even until now it doesn’t improve yet. I know they’ve already added cell sites but as the Sun cellular subscriber increases, their network becomes too congested that sometimes specially at peak hours, you couldn’t receive your messages on time. Before I was even planning to buy a cell signal booster but I’ve realized that it was just a waste of money because the one that I always call and text decided not to talk to me anymore… Oh.. Here we go again… anyway… past is past… I’m just ranting… That’s all… Peace… :P