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If Only…

April 1st, 2012 | Posted by Cynth in For Cynth

rainbows if only  If Only... pictureThese past few days have made me realize that there are a lot of things that I am dissatisfied with in my life. There are so many things that I want to achieve, so many things I want to reach, but many things prevent me from doing so, like our finances for instance, I earn enough to live comfortably but it doesn’t leave so much room for travel or for more luxurious things. Taking care of my children also hinders me, sometimes I want to go away, go out for the weekend to unwind, but the knowledge that my kids need me stops me from venturing far or taking more time. Part of me wishes that I didn’t delve into this responsibilities, that I remained single until now and didn’t have kids to take care of. Although I don’t know where life would have taken me should I have chosen a different path and well honestly speaking I wouldn’t really trade my life now for a different one if it means that I will not have my kids or be not married to my hubby. But there are just times, times like these when you feel like you are overwhelmed by everything that is going on and you just feel so frustrated and you just want to give up but in the end, you fight, you trod on and you suck it all in and move forward.

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