Cyber love is like a gamble – Did you ever fall in love online?February 3rd, 2009 | Posted by in Relationship | Upclose & Personal
“Is it possible to fall in lÎ¿ve with someone you never met?”
I’ve met this someone in an online chat just a year ago. I hardly ever check my email but on that day I was looking for online games on the internet. I also received an email notice that came from one of the online game newsletter that I sign up with. I was about to delete them all but an email notice caught my attention. “You’ve got private message from **********************” “So you are Jean?” I had second thoughts if I should answer that one or will I just ignore it. It was sent three days ago anyway and besides it was just a plain message, nothing extra ordinary so I assumed that this “someone” probably not expecting any reply at all. But I know how does it feel being ignored so I replied with a simple “Hi.”
**That’s how it started. Then on that night this someone called me up. It was actually weird how much we had in common. At first, we only talked in yahoo voice chat. From the start of the conversation I already felt something that I couldn’t explain. I knew I would fall in lÎ¿ve with this person so on the next day I tried to avoid this someone because I got so scared that maybe I was wrong and I didn’t even know the person that much. I tried to stay away from that person for as long as I could but the more that I tried to stay away, the more that I proved to myself that I was really falling in love. I was always wondering why this person knew that I was online even I was on invisible mode. At that time I had no idea that even when you go Invisible, you can still be detected.Â Then weeks, and months have passed till I noticed that sometimes we even talked for almost 24 hours. This person was always on my mind even we’re not talking. And I can hardly hide the smile on my face everytime that someone was talking to me even for no reason. It felt so stupid but I couldn’t even resist. I already admitted to myself that I was falling in love with this “Angel”. One day that someone confessed….. We had the same feelings for each other….. and the rest is history…. : ) We had a lot of unforgettable moments together but I’m sorry I can’t write them here.
“Love is a gamble, sometimes you win, other times you lose. But no matter what your cards are in this gamble, whether cloves, spades, or diamonds, remember-never ever play with the heart….”
For me, it doesn’t even matter if I would win or lose…. what matters is that I know that what I’ve felt was real and I don’t have any regrets at all. I am happy. Though I am not completely happy now for some reasons…….Â I just hope that everything would be fine…. I know it would take weeks…. months… year? I really don’t know how long do I have to wait… but I am still here and I am not losing hope. I will never let go… I know you will be okay soon…
Anyway…. did I answer the question already?