6/04/08
I’m so sorry…. I have no choice…. It seems like I messed up everything again… I’ve already told you I will never talk to her again but the situation that I have right now pushed me to do it. A few days ago I am so pressured with the business that my family have right now and since we’ve just started the business, big amount of money was involved and as of now immediate action is required… I know you will not understand everything that’s happening right now… I’m feelin’ so lost and empty… and all I can do is to hug my pillows so tight as if it’s you… How I wish things will be okay soon…
JOYCE ni JEAN
After that argument…i was deeply hurt. My tears were rushing as if i have a reservoir. But as you said that its jus a PURE WORK talks and it was imposible that things my crazy mind might come true. You said that you had N0 CHOICE…Although i was hurt honey, i felt the sincerity in your voice… I heard you cry while saying that whats in my mind was not true and could never be true. I was alarmed that i’ve hurt you with this damn jealousy thing. And i realized there’s nothing to be jealous…you’ve said that you’re doing everything for our future…for our DREAM HOUSE.. I’m proud of you honey you’re such a great wife to me and to our kids. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HONEY…and im looking forward to our 4 years and 10th monthsary….i missed you so much.